Note 35

What does the rose know that makes it smile without having to smile? An inner peace and happiness which can be attained and maintained by simultaneously avoiding those we can’t be nice to (note how roses have thorns), and also generally being as nice as possible—that is being nice in a natural way like roses, and not for the sake of being nice so people can like us! I have realized that exactly because I was not trying to be nice but because being nice was a part of my personality that people treated me warmly (of course this doesn’t apply to enviers, idiots and psychopaths who saw in me an enemy although I harbored no evil at all to anyone and had even forgiven those enemies that didn’t require revenge). It has dawned on me that as I went beyond age of 30, and became worried that I might actually die unexpectedly (no one has guarantees, death can come any time), that I realized so much of our frustrations are useless, that we can only do ourselves a favour by being good, and by avoiding undesirable people, that friends are our true treasures, that we must not fuss over work, pay, conditions, and other people’s alarmisms, and simply go on with a quiet, calm, nice and ethically sound life, patiently bearing hardships, rejoicing at our successes but not to the point of conceit, and working hard and smart despite the hanging sword of death.


Note 34

For a long time I had been wondering about the reason for the creation of Mosquitos. The objective truth should be far too many reasons than I can even fathom, but today, when some mosquitoes were busy making my life difficult it dawned on me that when the mosquito stings and is full of blood, it also becomes heavier, greedier, and stupid. Minutes within their feeding frenzy I killed them all with relative ease. This can act as a visceral lesson for us, humans, that if we are relentlessly pursuing greed, or feeding ourselves from sources we shouldn’t (illegal, unethical sources) then we will, too, be wracked for it. Another lesson here is paying attention that, if we achieve success in life, we should not be dizzy and arrogant and careless like the well-fed mosquito so that we don’t fall into the abysmal well of blunders.